Day 20

In my mind I’m gone to Carolina

I had the most vivid dreams last night. I was in a red mustang with a spoiler on the front. I started to drive through Boone and the Highland Games. The crowd of people in their red pattern kilts. As I turned right it was if I was coming from my old apartment in Wilmington and I was on College Road heading towards highway 40. The college on my right, looming behind the row of trees out front. The sunset was as beautiful as it could ever be and I could taste the ocean air.

The morning following I struggled with motivation, feeling like I could fall asleep at any second. Maybe hoping I would to take me back. I know my want to be home is going to get stronger the closer we go. A piece of me wants to give up on the next few weekends plans to go back while it is still summer.

After lunch I got my groove back. I got a lot done and ended up inviting my wife to help with the closet that needed organizing. We spent 7 hours on it but it is done. I feel a bit anxious because I’m going to have to be the boss and talk to my staff about being disrespectful. Enough people have said something, enough times it has happened to me, and now they disrespected my wife. I’m over it and furious at them. Time for an education and consequences. It has always been incredibly difficult to stand up to people but now I know I have too.